It’s May 1st!! 12 more days of preschool! 4 more music classes! 30 days until the pool opens for summer!
Oh yeah, it’s snowing 🙂 There’s that.
I love snow… in the winter. I don’t love snow in the late spring. But, alas, I live in beautiful, glorious, always weather changing, Colorado.
I must say, despite the snow, it was a beautiful weekend. I found myself surrounded with people and yet my introverted self was well pleased. I met new people with big hearts and warm smiles. I prayed with and studied truth with incredible women, known and new. I shared and listened with a close friend. We welcomed friends and family into our home who prayed with and blessed our space with us. I snuggled children and watched them play. We shared a meal with extended family. I made a cake. I watched it enjoyed. I spent quality time with my husband.
It was full! Not busy, not all easy but full. I didn’t spend much one-on-one time with Jesus though amidst that full weekend. Lots of group time with Him but not just a sit down conversation, me and Him.
Today we left church as a migraine came on in full force. I haven’t suffered a migraine in many years but all the memories come quickly back as the awfulness progresses. I felt so helpless! I had so much to do and wanted to help my sister with preparations for my sweet cousins baby shower but instead I collapsed into bed with a bucket near by and shivered and ached and heaved and prayed. Prayed for a new friend and her suffering with persistent constant migraines! Oh how I couldn’t imagine as I laid there! I cried out on her behalf and my own in just the first hours of my own pain. Here in the midst of a sweet, sweet weekend, I found myself defeated physically. I couldn’t DO. But I could pray. I felt very sick and yet very connected and thankful.
God met me there in my crumpled state and reminded me of his goodness and of his closeness. I prayed and prayed and eventually slept. When I awoke, I wasn’t all better but enough to get up and get myself to the shower. It was beautiful and once more “full.” I loved seeing the love of women for my cousin and this new little babe on the way. I loved seeing the grace in my sister who worked hard to compensate for my lack of it. I loved seeing Jesus in the women all around me.
In conversation with a new friend we were led to a facebook post of a mutual acquaintance with a piece of this new friend’s art. The screen painting she made said “All I need today is a little bit of coffee and a whole lot of Jesus.” She proceeded to tell me the story behind this painting and the friend of hers who pours two cups of coffee in the morning, one for herself and one for Jesus. She felt called to this simple act of acknowledgement that He IS there. Tonight is ending with my head still hurting but my heart alive. All weekend, despite it taking a migraine to get me to approach this truth, I have been reminded of God’s ever presence with me. I am so thankful for the richness of this weekend, the relationships surrounding me and my family and the beauty of tomorrow and chance to see another prayer answered and to have a cup of coffee tomorrow (or herbal tea for me) and one for Jesus. Amen.